
I don’t know guys, but I can’t take it anymore. I’m tired of fighting. I don’t know what I’m doing with my life. I feel like I messed up everything. I don’t want to eat anymore, I’m so ugly. Two days ago, I threw up what I ate because I felt so fucking guilty. I can’t eat without feeling guilty.
We’re still on strike at school, and I didn’t even finish my history project during this time. I accepted a job for this summer, but if we have classes during summer, what am I supposed to do?
I want to do so many things, I want to sing, I want to do acting, and I want to share everything I do with the whole world. But I just can’t. I think I might even try to kill myself. Because I know that I won’t get anywhere in life. I know that I won’t have the chance to become an actress. I waited and waited, because everyone said it would get better, but it fucking doesn’t.
The only thing that kept me going is my dream of being an actress and my inspirations. But it doesn’t matter anymore.
There’s no one that understands me. My mother just keeps yelling at me. My brother tells me that I’m being immature and that I took wrong choices in my life. I know they’ll miss me if I’m gone, but I think it’s for the best.
I don’t know what to do. I’m so lost. I’m so sorry to bother you with that guys, but I just need to let it all out.
attention everyone
this is what a russian 404 page looks like
Hahahahaaaaa. Actually the song is in Moldavian.
Guys. :D
I’m currently deleting every post I have (including this one), so don’t be surprised. I want to start all over with my blog. :) That also means that I’m going to unfollow some blogs, don’t take it personally, and please don’t be too upset. :/ I’m pretty sure no one will read this, but oh well. O: In the future, I’d like my blog to contain almost only my edits.
That’s pretty much it! :)
